In 2013, I (Annice) desire to be a deliberate woman. Well, what does that mean to me? The definition for deliberate is done consciously and intentionally.
What does the Bible say about being deliberate? Psalm 19:13-14 says, "Keep me from deliberate sins! Don't let them control me. Then I will be free of guilt and innocent of great sin. May the words of my mouth and the thoughts of my heart be pleasing to you, O LORD, my rock and my redeemer"
"Keep me from deliberate sins! Don't let them control me", I prayed and God gave me direction. He placed it on my heart to intentionally put Bible verses in several places in our house, as the wallpaper on my laptop and on the main screen/wallpaper of my iPhone 5. Therefore, I see God's Word several times each day. Most of my framed verses and wallpaper come straight from Pinterest. Check out my board Thy Word in a Lamp Unto my Feet and a Light Unto my Path.
"May the words of my mouth...be pleasing to you," I am a stay-at-home momma to 4 awesome kids, ages 19 months to 6 years old. I also Home school 2 of them and only have 2 that still take naps. Like most mothers, I am drowning in laundry, house work, bills to pay, being pulled in all directions by the kids, making meals, wiping butts, giving baths, and the list goes on and on and on. I am lucky if I get a shower, let alone dressed by the time my husband returns home from work. Throughout all of this craziness, I tend to speak out in a way that is not pleasing to the Lord. Whether it is to my children, husband, friends, slow driver on the road, Walmart (for not having enough registers open), or my parents. I intentionally refuse to gossip about other people too. God has been working in my heart and has been changing my words before they come out of my mouth. But, I want to be more conscious about what I am saying. I am a witness to the lost, a role model to my children and disciple of God.
"and the thoughts of my heart....be pleasing to you" My mind wonders a lot throughout the day. I think about what all needs done around our home, about the kids needs, my husbands needs, how I can help a friend in need, how I can be a better Homeschooling Momma, how can I serve more in my church, how can I witness to those I love that do not know the Lord, how I can change my children's generation and make them follow hard after God, how to start my own Home school co-op or private school/church/summer camp, how can I squeeze in a shower...you get the point. There are also times when my thoughts are not pleasing to the Lord. Those thoughts usually are negative ones toward myself or others; questioning my faith; questioning why God made me a momma of 4; questioning why He called me to Home school, etc.
Before closing this out in prayer, I would like to thank God for putting the idea of this group into Mandy's head. What a blessing this group has been thus far and I look forward to see what You have in store for us.
Lord I come to you today a broken woman, one who needs your loving arms wrapped around me. Please guide me to do and say things that are pleasing to you. It is my desire, Lord, to be Your disciple in my home, as well as out in this broken world. Cause me to be the Deliberate Woman that You want me to be.It is in Jesus' precious name that I pray, Amen